Mittwoch, 9. Januar 2008

We die only once - and for such a long time.

I just tried to finish off my day by watching A Love Song for Bobby Long and I have to state again, how much I love this film. I felt like watching a film where a character actually gets up and takes her life in her hand and does something, because to tell you the truth, I haven't been doing much lately. I mean, I got my work for classes tomorrow and next week done, and I read, and I will read some more because I have to finish up the book until Thursday, but still... I haven't managed anything for my papers.

I mean one of the papers is a problem in itself because there is the chance to do some fictional writing instead of the usual analytic academic stuff that no one will ever read again and that you put so much work into and that makes me feel depressed because I work so hard for it when it all just seems to be so useless. But actually telling a story would be something different. If I managed for once to sit down and relax und come up with a story and write. I know that I can, I've already written stuff where I thought "Wow, this is really not bad" when I found it months later and read it again. But well. And thinking of this I also thought about what I want to do after school because it is a question that won't go away and that sometimes when I'm not exactly busy with everyday life just comes in through the back door to sit on my desk, staring at me in this accusing way because I've had so much time to think about it and still don't have an answer.

Not to mislead you, my day wasn't all bad. But still I feel the need to get up and do something and I still don't manage to do it. It is frustrating.


3 Kommentare:

amanda james hat gesagt…

moliere!i had to listen to the german sync to understand the name of the author!!!did i ever said i didn't like american english? well,i do, but i agree that it IS a wonderful movie

Purslane hat gesagt…

But it's wonderful Southern dialect! I love it dearly, the whole rhythm of it. Although I have to admit, Moliere pronounced in English sounds a little weird.

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